With all the missings

I miss track. POL-ITES is like going to be up in Jan, and I am not even getting prepared yet. Have not been training. Sighhhh.

I miss Running.
I miss trainings.
I miss Sweating.
I miss enduring.
I miss Laughing.
I miss crying.
I miss THE TEAM.


On a happier note, my knees are recovering I suppose. Plus heard from Ronnie that he got a physiotherapist, perhaps I can get some help from there.

ohhh mannn, stop emoing WW! D: Hang on there! Tml's going to be another long day at Swensens. Christmas eve, sure a busy day it will be. Well, fighting fighting fighting! Woosh!

These few days, I have not been feeling myself. Just what is wrong with me? I'm getting so tired, not as in physically. But more towards mentally. I feel so useless too. Sigh.

Ran from NYP to Khatib ytd with Jasmine. Hmm the reservoir that we ran pass was quite nice. Like relaxing seh. All troubles also gone. I wish I can run everyday like this. No more thinking, no more emoing.

And on a random note: I've got another dream occupation in mind now- Police.

(:

Hold on. Uphill battle.

Booohoo, work is no fun today:( I've got no more strength. Trainings, competitions, work, courses and SCH's REOPENING! How am I going to cope?

BAH! I must hold on, I can't break down!

It's always an uphill battle. Hold there. (:

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

It's pointless to say when there is already no belief, no trust, let alone explaining.

Who are you? Why can you do things that you want and why others can't ?

Am I like INVISIBLE? Ask yourself, did I try my best in the very first place? What makes you think that I didn't? And do you know even know how much hurt you have actually caused ?

There were always times that people fall, but they are trying to pick themselves up. Not only that you didn't encourage or help them up, you actually kicked them or pushed them down to the very bottom of the pit. Do you know how that actually feels like? It's beyond description. It's a horrible feeling, so painful. :( Yet, I can't cry. Irony. I used to cry easily, and now suddenly, all I've felt like I'm losing myself.

My heart is really really very very heavy heavy and tired. I guess I should take a break.

When passion becomes pressure.

Working at Swensens
Something happened and I broke down during the second or third day, couldn't really remember which day. Useless me. :( Beside that, everything were rather alright, just that I was a bit clumsy and too tensed up and that hmmm I dunno how to put make-up! Haha, should try to relax more. All staffs there were rather friendly and funny, & that helps a bit in making me feel better while working:) Nice!

Trainings
Knee still pain. :( No motivation to push myself. Im a loser, Im a coward. I hate myself for being like this. Change, competitions are coming up! Jiayou man! Give me some time. I promise to change & I will do it.

Study
Results are out for TP and NP. Good loh, my friends almost all get back results and did quite well. Unlike me, worrying and worrying. Sighhh. scared seh. hmm, don't think le ba!

Chalet
YES! AT LEAST ONE THING IM VERY VERY VERY HAPPY ABOUT AND LOOKING FORWARD TO! HAHAHAHAHA! WHEE IT'S PARTY TIME! WHEEEEE :DD

Alrights shall sleep soon, got to work tml. After that meeting Jasmine to buy the chalet stuff (YAY!) and perhaps go check-up for my knee. Hoookay, that's about all. Take care people! Enjoy the HOLIDAYS!

Woooooo, Holidays are here! Like finally, after emm 2 torturous weeks of exams, I am FREE!
HAHA. So Thursday, went Kbox with Jasmine, Huiwen and Murphy. HAHAHA, FUN MAN! We not only sang, we SCREAMED, we DANCED, we JUMPED around! LOL, Murphy was like covering his ears when the rest of us screamed for our favourite bands. HAHA

& we too disturbed Murphy when he sang his song. As we do not know how the tune goes, we started to crap the song out. We read out the lyrics LOUD and I guess that distracted him somehow. Haha, but he was still able to continue to sing, salute man! Then Huiwen and Murphy need to go off first and left with Jasmine and me. We two ki-siao again. Lols. We SCREAMED INTO the microphone and like having our own concert. LOL.


Afterwards, we went to walk around AMK hub and ate Subway and went home. Next, was Friday, Met up with Lile and Jiayu to shop around at Novena-Velocity shopping mall? I can't really remember the name, haha. I went to walk around UnitedSquare first. Then, when they reached, we went to have SubWay, haha Im addicted to Subway! The cookies and the sandwich combination is shiok man! Then, we went to walk around and Lile bought some clothes. Haha, she want to look like 18 but kind of hard for her cause she got a 'baby-face'. LOL. Unlike me, no need to purposely buy mature-like clothes to wear ppl ald think that I am 20. haa, wonder if that's even a good thing. lols. Then, Jiayu bought some make-up for her presentation next time and we went to buy hand-bands! I dunno if that's what it's called, but yea, we bought it! It's like telephone cords, haha so cute! At first, Lile and I dunno what it is until Jiayu told us. & she said that this is common. LOL, then Lile and I realised how outdated we are. So, Lile got a black one, Jiayu got a black and grey I think, and I got a Green one! :DD Then, off to my training~
Wahh, reached like early and accompanied woonching to the doctor to get her stamp for her OBS camp. While walking, I was thinking if I should consult the doctor about my knee. & ended up, I went to see the doctor too! Anyway, thanks woonching for helping me to pay first as I didnt bring enough cash. Then, went to train. Booo, my knee sucks still. Ahh, just hope the medication that the doctor give helps man. Then was dinner with track mates. LOL, I had a good laugh man. Then, home-sweet-home!

Saturday, went to Bugis with Jasmine. Saw some job interviews and took down the numbers. Called most of them and was told that would only get a reply on Monday. So have to wait yea. Hmmm, walked around and chatted. Then we reached AMK hub and while resting, we saw this super cute baby!!!!! Really super cute! Soo chubby and the parents are like buying baby clothes for their child. so sweet (:

Then, Sunday! Mum said she want to shop around the new shopping malls. So, I brought her to Iluma. Wah, things there were like expensive seh. We didnt buy much and ended up buying more at Bugis street. HAHA. Then, had KFC for Lunch and Pepper Lunch for Dinner and went home. Ohh yea, saw Roufang from FS0802 and called out to her. She was shopping with her family too I guess(: Yea, and trained-bus home. Tml's got Swensens Interview at 3pm at Bugis. Ohh man, BUGIS AGAIN! Lols. After that, shall head off to my training. Knee Knee recover pls~

Alrights, pictures are in Facebook. Lazy to update. hahahahaha. See you guys till then~

Hello people!
If you guys feel like eating MACDONALDS, I STRONGLY encourage you all to BUY the HAPPY MEAL! After doing so, please choose give the Doraemon toy to meeeeeeee kay? THANKS!

& happy meal makes you happy too, so no harm right? you happy, I happy!
BWAHAHAHAHHAHAH!

Stop Thinking!
Got screwed up for some of the papers. :(
Shall not think about it.

Anyway, on a happier note, Im left with 2 more papers! YAY. LOL, exams all the way from Tues to Friday almost killed everyone can! Like endless! And after Friday, everyone acted as if exams ended! (when we actually have 2 more to go) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!

For me, I went swimming with Huiwen and Jasmine but Jas didn't swim cause we informed her too late! So ended up, Jasmine sat by the side of the pool and watched us swim and run in the pool! LOL, it's been rather long since I last trained, and my stamina dropped like SO MUCH! It's only the 4th set I think and I'm already tired. Sighh, got to buck up soon! and I need my knees to RECOVER! After about 5 sets, Jasmine went off WHILE laughing at the way I swim! EHH, I LEARNT MYSELF HOR! No coach or what leh. Hmmph!

Then, bathed and after that, Mac-ed with Huiwen! Hehehehehehehe, we chatted from around 8.00pm to about 10.20pm! HAHAHA, and it was not only us! We saw so many SCL ppl at MAC happily chatting away like EXAMS ended!

Then home-sweet-home! First thing, FACEBOOK. Second Thing, YOUTUBE. Third thing, SLEEP!
Omgosh, I got back all the sleep I wanted man! :) YIPEE!

Feast cancelled.
Mac instead! LOL

Tireddddddddddddd. super tiredddddddddd.
Im screwed up totally this time round.


Goes haywire~

Why can't I just put in more effort?!?!
Why am I sleeping all the time!
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY :( :( :(

Stop worrying and thinking!!! This is not the time to do so! Stop Slacking! Go studyyyy!!!
arrrrghhhhh. So far I have only touched around 4 chapters of microbio and only rmbered 1?
I am in deep shit this time round! This is the worst preparation for exams I've ever had!
What's wrong with me man!

Going to have a big feast later, well that's sth to be happpy about!

What's wrong with me?
I can't even control my thoughts now.

Argh.
Facebook and Youtube are such Distractions!


BAH shoot me.

脚步是停停走走 回忆是去去留留 真心的朋友才能长长久久- edited

Wednesday
Intended to only help out for the NYP track meet cause of my injury. But, I ended up running 4x400 m relay as there's not enough people for SCL/SHS. Haha, though my knees felt pain again, I was glad that I've ran though. It's like I've been itching to run. LOL. After that, iced my knees and felt better. Well, it was my own decision to run so of course, I did not regret. (:

Thursday
A normal school day. Lessons and lessons, boring. haha but there was a slight short break before the fdchem tutorial. So, having nothing to do, Jas, Yt, Bx and I decided to go to library to look for huiwen and gang. Initially, we wanted to just chat. After that, we saw computers and we started Facebook-ing! haha, it was hilarous when we all tried to beat each other high scores for the Typin Maniac and other games such as Find it or not. Well, it was my first day in the week that Im able to go home early at around 4pm plus? happy, cause finally able to rest. :DD

Friday
Morning was roarrrrrr, didn't pay any attention at all to the fdmicrobio tutorial as my stomach was so pain so pain. :( Was grabbing Bx's jacket and pinched her once. lols. sorry ah xue! I couldn't take the pain. Then was the make-up marketing presentation, well I was on sleepy mode, so didn't present as well. haha, but Jasmine made a super funny mistake. She said " our food product which is a shopping product" as " our food product which is a shopping arcade". LOL, imagine eating up the whole of the shopping arcade! HAHA.
Afternoon was THE BEST man. Project 2 was super fun. As our group is supposed to bbq satay, while waiting for the satay to thaw, we bbq-ed hotdogs instead. HAHAHA! Nice man. Then, woonching's group came to join us and we have fun bbq-ing.Guess what, next Linliang gave us some leftover Marshmallows and we started bbq-ing them! Also, we have free yoghurt drink and potato chips! haha, it was just like a mini bbq session! wahh, I was almost full after that.

Next, stayed back with woonching to go for Track's makan session. Wah, makan session was another BEST man. Pizza, KFCs, Durain Feast= my rounder tummy! And there was a surprise by the team. They helped celebrate the June, July and August Babies' birthdays! Totally enjoyed myself. Thanks NYP ATHLETICS ! :D:D After that, went home and bathed and slept till today 4pm! omgosh, I slept for like super long? Stomach still cramping , pain like hell. Lucky mama made the ginger-heitang drink for me. Felt better after that. Thanks mum! (: Continued to sleep after that and woke up like now which is 8pm plus. Well well, wasted all my time sleeping :( But is okay, I needed rest!

Alrights, and class blog is updated by woonching! It's more lively now, FS0803 go see go see! :D
& good luck to all for upcoming exams.

& also, to Taiwan ppl, Jiayou & stay strong!!

Restored my blog. Cause I got nothing to do.

Sighhs. Things have not been going my way recently. All Way Way Way Wrong. Way Too Wrong.
NYP Opens was held today as well as going to be held tml. Helping out as Starter was rather alright. But the feeling of seeing others run and pushing all out and you yourself stuck there was rather awful :( I was upset, and feeling all the way down. Sigh, I can't be stubborn anymore. I know I need a break to fully recover. But it's just so tempting to go and run or play badminton. Wah, nearly broke down. Thankfully, I was able to control my tears.

& I'm already sort of immune to the relationship problems(not as in BGR) happening all around. There was this once whereby I was so tired, upset and cried. Though, Im still feeling somehow or rather the same except for the crying part, I just let matters pass cause there are just too many too many things to settle rather than sitting down and fret all over. Im not avoiding, it's just that some things are beyond our control. I can't change the world and how ppl think, but I can change the way I think. Perhaps, it's not that easy afterall. But I would try to be stronger. I need to, and I will try.

On a lighter note, the whole of NYP athletics did well in this NYP opens regardless of participating, helping out or winning! (:

Boohoo.

I am super tired.
For no reason, my hip lose control & I fell right on both of my knees. Now I can't run all I want due to the injuries.

I have not been myself lately. I can't do anything right.

I am going really really reallly insane.



R.a.n.d.o.m.

Games day was awesomex987654320000!
Thank you to all who make the Game Day a successful and fun one! ;D
NYP Athletics, woosh!

AND.
Somebody please wake me up from my sleepy mood.
I have not been running and doing my work. BOOHOO.
:(

I hate being sick. Cause there's nth I can do besides sleeping, sleeping & sleeping. This is wasting so much of my time. Now that I've got better, I've to rush everything again. Report, tutorials & the planning of so many things!

Boohoo. Yesterday, I practically came home just to sleep almost all the way after the games day dry run. Headache still stayed there, everything's blurred now. I can't focus on any work. ARRRRRRRRRRRR.

On a lighter note, Track Games' Day dry run was quite successful in a way or so! Yayhoo.

Alrights, got to go rest ald. Just felt like ranting out my thoughts since I can't focus on any work.
Take care people, drink more water and rest well!

My habit of thinking too much has not been kicked away. Headaches still come on and off. Memory's falling apart. What to do? Ignore about all those nonsense that I've been talking about.

School had been pretty busy, with all the projects and reports! Trainings had been pretty tough recently, guess because more competitions coming up. No more honeymood period for us.
Train hard guys! (:

& recently, I've felt weaker like mentally and physically. My energy practically drained off. Took back my blood report. Doctor explained and encouraged me to stop exercising for a period because I've overexercised during the period when I was sick. So immune system kind of not strong. But, I'm recovering now & taking Rexodon everyday! haha, so I'll be still training unless I can't take the pain anymore from my injury.

Alrights, have been falling asleep. Too tired. Argh, I should slap myself. Alot of work including all the planning of the track camp and projects and reports have not been done yet! Better rush now! Bye people. Take care(:

And and and, HAPPY MUMMY DAY! ;D
tadaaaaaa.

All comers race today.
Not very well done, but at least a new PB. (: Anyway, thanks Coach and NYP team for the encouragements, concern and support! Wouldn't have made it without you people!
Also Specially want to thank meiyi for coming down all the way and accompany me throughout the race! THANK YOU. haha, be honoured when you see this.

Ohh yeah, thanks to those who encouraged me before the race too. Thanks! (:


Slightly sick and aching now. Booo. Hope I can recover by tml as there is the orientation for the new batch of SCLs. Alright, got to go now. Take care people!

Super tired. Aching almost everywhere, from head to toes, maybe not that exaggerating, but somehow yeah. From headache ( due to insomia & tiredness), to core muscles, to hipbone, to thighs and calves & to ankles. BIG BOO.

However, the trainings were still quite enjoyable despite being tough (to me) and putting aside the pain and tiredness. Constant encouragements, concern and funny conversations among team-mates keep the whole team spirit up. BIG YAY.

Went to try out 800m before my sunday race & oh man, my timing was 3min24 sec which were like duper duper slow. I need to push myself more. Argh, and all the muscles ache & hipbone pain keep holding me back. And I'm running under the range of 2min45 sec to 3mins for this Sunday's race. NERVOUS. Omgosh, I'm afraid that I will be like not performing & disappoint the whole team and myself :(

On another note, PFA today was fun, but my flexibility was poor. HAHA, need to buck up before year 3, sit & reach :X
Pheeewwww. I need to relax & hopefully all the pain go away before sunday's race.
still can't sleep, one meh meh, two meh meh, three meh meh, doesn't help.

Went training today. Did about 4 rounds around the school plus running up the slope for 10 times.
Felt pain and stopped for the 1200 m run. I really don't want to get any more injuries or further overstrain myself before the upcoming 800m race. I've got only myself to blame for the injuries cause I didn't really know where are my limits. Now, I won't want history to repeat itself. Luckily, Coach understood & let me rest.

Anyway, after some thinking, I realised what Laychi said to me was right. Train when you are fit, only then, you can get better after each training session, and prepare for the next. Thanks Laychi if you happened to pass by & see my blog somehow! haha. :D

Boo, I'm really tired. Work is such a chore, and I'm so not looking forward to working. I just don't get it why some customers like to find fault with salesgirls. Not like they are the bosses and can give discounts as and when they like. :(

Alrights, that's about all. Too lazy to upload any photos recently. :x
I wish I can stop all the thinkings, I need to stop.

Buhbye peeps, have a nice day! :D

Omgosh, I'm feeling so not well today! Didn't complete track workout, Boo! stupid cramps la! Next sat or sun is the race ald, I need more trainings! Cramps go away please.

Today, the whole of today, I was feeling so not myself. Wasn't able to talk much or push myself to run. Felt so cold on the way home and kept rubbing my hands. Slept throughout the bus journey cause was too tired. Weird eh, did so little for training today & felt even more tired than normal days.

Anyway I want to apologise to anyone whom I didn't really reply today cause I was not feeling well. Sorry guys, hope you all can understand (:

Now I can't sleep for 2 reasons. First, the pain. Second, slept throughout the bus journey ald.

Booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, I dislike cramps.
&milo is a wonderful food creation (:

Just reached home. Mentally & physically tired Too many things happened today.
The feeling of being treated like dust is really terrible. Is like my presence doesn't make a difference. Yes, I'm not the best or whatsoever, but at least I'm trying hard. I've got feelings too. It's like I feel that I'm not being respected. & on another note, customer rights are so not true. Who gives customers the rights to step on my pride?

Mum talked to me just now. She wants me to more mature, in terms of knowing my priorities. All along I've been trying to maintain a balance among studies, track and work. However, work's on the last in the list. Mum sounded as though I was selfish, I know that's not what she really meant. Just I've got a feeling that I am. Perhaps, I should quit track or should I go lesser on trainings and work more? I don't know. I'm totally confused now. Does quitting means giving up?

Argh, and I really need to find more jobs. Recession, sigh.. I've just eaten my dinner yet I'm feeling hungry. Bah, it always happen when I'm stressed out or sad. Yeah, maybe this is what they call the "eating depression syndrome". Now, I'm going for tubs of ice-cream.

I'm in a veryveryveryveryveryveryvery messy mind right now!
There are 98765432100000000 things going through my mind right now so much so that my mind is in a complete blank.


I am laughing at how silly I am. Is that a good thing? I don't know, but it beats crying all along.

It's been really long since I've last had a good laugh. All the thinkings are driving me crazy. It's never been like that before. I don't know what is wrong. But oh well I should just stop all these. Went to the library few days ago with meiyi. Wanted to borrow The Last Lecture or The five people you meet in heaven. But all on loan. :( Next time perhaps.

Made Strawberry Cheesecake ytd with mum. Not that successful though cause I've forgotten to poke holes into the jelly. opps! haha. Today, played with my neighbour in the afternoon. The kids can really make me smile, truthfully. Seeing them make me realise how easy happiness can be. Why bother to search high and low for happiness? It's there, depending on how you deal with matters. Must really thank the kids for teaching me a lesson. :D Oppseh, all of a sudden, I sound old. Boohoo! hee.

Alrights, that's about all. I really need to change.
I can't turn back time, I can only move forward.
Stop thinking unnecessarily.

Take care people!(:

I'm mad, seriously. I'm collapsing. All these thoughts of mine are going to kill me sooner or later. I better stop thinking. But, what can I do? I hope there is something such as a "forget-everything-pill" and I can just take it. Yeah, it's stupid of me to think so. I don't want to be a coward too. I want to face the problems, but it ain't easy sometimes. I have to have to stop thinking and stay strong.

And I'm deproving, with regards to training. My stamina dropped like a huge lot, and my body ain't working well. Injury here and there. Pain almost everywhere. Mentally tired. So many problems. And I can't get to sleep. What's wrong with me?!?!?!?!


ARGH. slap me please, somebody. Or I should just do it myself.

I hope I can not think anymore.
I hope I can cope.
I hope I won't collapse.

Didn't receive a reply from the person-in-charge for the Flag Day. :( So, rested at home instead.

Anyway, just realised someone hacked into my facebook account. Argh. Waste my time to change password & all, such a chore. WARNING: Stop hacking my account, I'm not one that you would like to find trouble with. Thanks.

Cooked dinner today as mum was tired. Ahh, I overcooked the Brocoli so much so that it tasted so dry. Mum said I cooked until all the nutrients no more. :( The rest were okay. But, still there's room for alot more improvement. HAHA.

Two things to YAY about: First, Dad passed his test! Weee.
2nd, I think my ankle's recovering. (:

No more race.
Just received a message from Ronnie that I don't have to run for the event and to have a good rest during the weekends instead. Guess Coach wants me to rest and let my ankle recover first.
Well, I guess my timing during the stimulation race was way too slow as well. :( Bah, I need to buck up and push myself more more more. But that will have to wait till my ankle fully recovers. It's better now, not that pain, just a bit "loose" ? As for my hippy, I just wish that the pain don't come back anymore. One more thing, my stamina dropped. Booooo.

Anyway, emailed the person-in-charge for the Flag Day if I can still register now since I got no more race. Hopefully I can help out.(: Hmm, think I shall put the ankle guard on tml just in case.

I don't want to think anymore. Head hurts.
Hoookayyy. Going to take care of OH OH! now.Buhbye :D

Something wrong with my internet! Boohoo!
Now I'm at xinlian's house using internet. And I have to get back home soon for dinner. So many things to take note and update, but w/o internet how to? argh.

Race's on saturday and sunday, the event is 1500m. Quite afraid, but well just try my best. Put oilment on my ankle ald, hopefully it recovers soon-soon!

Wanted to go for the Flag day, but got the race thing. Well, perhaps next time. :(

Alrights, got to go soon! take care peeps, bubye(:

SKIPALONG ~

So tired of feeling blue
Such a heavy weight on you
So shake it off and make your way to somewhere
different, to somewhere different

Cause you're gonna skip along
Quite merrily baby, skip along.

:)

Camp was quite fun. bit draggy during the night walk though. Did many camp stuff, ice-breaking, crawling about, running around the whole school, rather similar to that of track camp. But overall, still quite fun. Cause different experience with different people always bring out different feels. I like the amazing race especially as well as the performance. Team's spirit was brought out and uber hila-humo-rous! :D OooOOooO, Hephaestus! (: Anyway, have to thank the SCL grop for organising this camp. Took some photos, shall update some other time.

My old injury came back though. Now, I can't rotate my right ankle. Went to work still this morning till 11pm. Did not sit down for 12 hours, and now my ankle seem a bit swollen. Applied some oilment ald, hopefully it recover soon as I need to get back to my training asap after missing for one week due to work and camp. Monday there might be Ice-skating , I want to Go, want to Go! so Ms Ankle, please recover soon. BAH!

There's still work tml, from 10.30 am to 10.00pm. Boo.
tired. Shall end here.
Nights, starry.

It's funny how you are only remembered when you are needed.


& not to mention, sometimes even your closest ones don't even bother.
How cool.

Marina Barrage with Family :D

Didn't update for quite long. Too tired. haha

Anyway, went to Marina Barrage with my family recently. Breathtaking views. Some sort of refreshing & relaxing feel too. Took some photos that day. Sis and I became the camerawoman. :D

Marina Barrage Water PLAYGROUND. WEE

Took this with my handphone. hahahha I LOVE IT!

Just some sort of reflection I'm trying to take. haha

Papa and Mama :)

Bro, Mum and I (:

Threesome(:

Ain't he cute? Posing for us! :D Amazing, a heart shape(:

Alrights, that's about all. hee, going to sleep soon. Update about the sentosa trip and today some other time. Camping soon! :D

Have a good night(:

Someone just tagged nonsense in my tagboard.
And,

TO THAT PARTICULAR SOMEBODY WHO FAKED MY NAME AND TALK TO MY FRIEND :
YOU BETTER STOP IT. IF YOU ARE NOT GOING TO STOP IT, YOU WATCH OUT. CAUSE I AM NOT GOING TO LET THE MATTER REST. I HAD ALREADY DELETED WHATEVER YOU TYPED. LET ME TELL YOU THIS, MY BLOG ALLOWS NO NONSENSE. THIS IS THE LAST WARNING. IF NOT, I WILL HAND OVER THE MATTER TO THE POLICE. THANK YOU.

Went to Sentosa with the trackers today. Fun fun fun! :D
We played Frisbee, Volleyball on land and in sea. haha!
Saw the Ultimate team there, guess they were having some sort of competition. Hope they won, but the experience still matters most, yeah? (:
Ohh yeah, NYP trackers are really funny I must say. Managed to crack into laughters for dunno how long throughout the games. But sadly, some of us have to leave early to meet friends and for work. Well, we still can have many of these gatherings, I hope! :D
After which, I met up with RACH to pass her the storybook and we bade goodbye. She got to meet her boyfriend while I need to prepare for work. My previous boss msged me to ask me to go back to work. & seriously, working at J8 is no fun. There are many people walking pass and see, but very few bought. Moreover, the cash machine at J8 is much harder to comprehend than the others at century square, raffles city and bugis. And closing ends around at 11am , & that sums up my day.

Saw many familiar faces today. My camp instructor at Sentosa, Mr Stewart at the bus-stop, Li Xuan at Mac, my sis and her boyfriend at J8. HAHA.

Alrights, that's about all. And I'm all tired. Photos will be uploaded asap. I need a rest. I'm all sunburnt now! OUCH!
Nights people(:

Holidays. yay.

Too lazy to update yesterday, so shall update today.

Went out with Meiyi on Thursday and enjoyed myself very much. It's been long since I've went out with her except for track trainings, haha.

Ohh yeah, and today went to track training. Almost killed me. Tiring. Too long didn't train, can only blame myself. But training still help to relieve my stress. At least I don't think too much during trainings. & I'm sorry for thinking that much, I don't want to.

Anyway, I can't get to sleep lately. Dunno what's wrong with me. Drinking warm milk doesn't help that much. And it seems like things have not been too well for me. ARGH, don't want to think ald.

Just read a story. Is it true that it's harder for people to be truthful to each other nowadays? Why can't things be simpler? Ahh, forget it.

Shall get some sleep soon. Going to Sentosa with the trackers tml and meeting RACH after that! Yay. :D

Meiyi and I. My 11-years-best best friend! :D

Makan session with the trackers(:

Continued.
'm not going to care about exams anymore. As for the matter, I will try not to think too much.

Anyway, Track training today cheered me up a little. Running under the rain wasn't that bad after all, just a bit giddy after that. Aching now after not training for quite awhile.

Makan session with the team was Awesome. Celebrated Coach's and Lynn birthday. Once again, Happy Birthday to them! :D I like LIKE like Makan session. It's some sort of bonding for us. We've had games, laughters, fun and wonderful food together. Anyway, thanks to Justina and Atiqah for organising this month's makan session. Good job(:

That's about all. I'm tired, need a rest. Shall get to sleep soon. Take care people.

lalala~

Today, before the exam, I received a msg.
& I suppressed all my feelings.

In the midst of the exam, I can't take it. I bent my head down and cried a little.
I tried controlling myself, but to no avail.

After the exam, I cried again.

In the end, I screwed up the physics paper (which most ppl think is the easy or rather the easiest) by just attempting only ard 2 qns & the rest of the time worrying and brooding over the matter.

No, it's not BGR. Please don't ask me what matter is it. Sorry, and thanks for understanding.

sometimes, I wish I can just forget everything and lead a happier life.
now I'm pissed with myself, and also afraid. But I can't do anything too. It's over, I should learn to let go.

Ohh man, I'm so excited now!
Tml's the last paper, physics.
I can't get down to study, cause my whole brain is all about HOLIDAYS!



ahhh, and somebody keeps telling me that her paper has finished and she's enjoying herself very much now! booooooooo, shoo off! HAHA

Just woke up.

Ate two bowls of century egg porridge today :D
Still hungry, the medicine really churn my stomach upside down.
haha, yes I've put on weight. But I just can't resist foods.

And one more paper to go. Kind of tired but happy, cause after that will be HOLIDAYS.
Which means I get to train (hopefully), camp, bunk over, work and the list goes on! :D

Oh yeah, thanks to all who asked me to take care, be it sms or tag or call. Thanks again!(:
All rights, take care people! :D
Go go FS0803, one more paper to go!

Feverish.
Hot and cold all over, hate this feeling.
Why must I be sick at this time? Damn it.

Just woke up ! :(
Biochem paper tml = No hope.
Studied only one chapter still- Glycolysis.

I wonder how am I going to survive. The medicine's really making me drowsy. I'm tired.
I want to go back and sleep, but I can't.
Need to at least study one more chapter. GRRR.

GRRR. Sick makes someone frustrated. I am quite angry at my sister. IF not for her inconsiderate acts, I wldn't be sick. Cough & sneeze in front of me. Dunno what is cover up the mouth. Besides, use my cup when she's sick just because she's lazy to wash hers. Now, end up pass everything to me. Thank you very much. :(

Cough and flu, making me weak all over.

Besides, two things piss me off.
6 hours wasted. a) 3 hours for waiting and b) 3 hours settling some piss-me-off problems.
Hello, not that I ask for anything, but not even a word of Thanks. All I get back is nothing but blame.

Grrrr. Have not been revising except one chapter of biochem. Sigh.

& right now, I'm pissed, sick, and tired.
I'm not going to care anymore. & medicine's YUCKY!

Sleeping is such a wonderful feeling.

Having a sip of the honey pomelo tea and a storybook by your side is just as nice.

Today, I finally enjoyed both.

After exams, there will be camp, chalet and Trainings hopefully. Besides, I want to go around and take photos. I want to go to the Mint Cafe, the world of toys as well.
http://www.streetdirectory.com/restaurants/singapore/reviews/image-11707752340982-mickey_mouse_and_teddy_bear_collection.php

http://www.streetdirectory.com/restaurants/singapore/reviews/image-11707755030656-the_beatles_collections.php
Take a look at the above links, amazing collections. :D

I've told you, I don't want to be who you want me to be.
Can I not hang on?


Bang my head on the wall!

Eek. I feel sick.
Tummyache. Wonder if I ate the wrong things. Ice-cream? Peach tea? or Yakult?

Not long ago, I found out that one can only drink around 2 bottles of yakult a day. But I drank like 3-4 bottles a day for about years. And It's already a habit to drink at least 3 bottles a day. I'm trying to reduce now, heard from mum that it's not good to drink too much. Perhaps, my digestive system becomes very good after drinking so much Yakult and that's why I ate so much! haha, Rubbish. The reason why I ate so much is because I LOVE TO EAT. as simple as that. And not because of 8/9 of my body make up of digestive system, someone said that. -.-

Yeaps, I've got no mood to study for organic chem and I'm still not starting now.
I want to eat though I have just eaten. I want to sleep even though I just woke up. I want to run though I'm asked to rest. I want to sing even though I'm asked to shut up. I want to laugh but it's stupid to face the laptop and laugh. I want to go to "Made with Love" and buy all sorts of materials and start designing things but It's too far. I've Got so many things I want to do. But currently, I can only take out my notes and face them. :(

Exams still going on. Finally a small break, one day. Ohhhhhh mama.
I am tired, but I'm not sleeping yet. I want to watch all the 7pm, 9pm and 10 pm shows today. Then I shall go to sleep. Like finally I can watch all three. Yay for that.
But I still got to study again tml. & Boo for this.


Anyway, I got power teeth. I just ate a metal egg! MUAHAHA.
& I want to run, very much.

<3 & :)

Happy Valentine's Day 2009! <3
& Happy Friendship Day 2009! :D


If I'm not wrong, Friendship Day is today as well? Haha. Well, Everday is Friendship Day to me actually! & also, Everyday is Valentine's for the couples. :D
So, cherish everyone esp your Loved ones!

Hope everyone enjoy this special day of yours ! (: (: (:

Screamed it all out today. Nice feeling.
Exams, Bahhhh.
Stress, and did something to my hair. My bro said I looked more like a boy now & my mum said I looked like mushroom head. Tsk, all the bad comments. Worse, my sis said I looked like nerd.
Only my father said :" okay ma, save shampoo." Well, I don't know if that's a compliment, but ahhh, whatever.

Anyway, Yellow Submarine by Beatles is Nice (:
~ We all live in a yellow submarine, Yellow submarine.
Yellow submarine :D

I'm very upset.
Promise I made to my mum to train lesser since IVP due to my hipbone injury which kept coming on-and-off and also studies was kept broken by me. But recently, I did take a break from training.
Received msg today that there is a All-comers this Sunday. Was told that 800m was my event. Told mum about it, but her voice..
Answer known.
But I still try persuading her saying that this is really the last race and I will take a break after that till my hipbone recover fully, I hope. And her reply was :" Since when it's not your last race? Quit Track."
I was shocked. She had been nagging about it, but I just replied a "urrmm", a "orrhh" or a "okay". Then, she didn't bother too much about it. But today, she was stern. I don't know if she mean it but I hope not.
Anyway, I had msged coach and he said not to worry and that I can skip this race.
But I still feel disapppointed and bad at the same time. I want to run, it's like a new experience again. Though I can't get into the National Juniors , but least it's still an exposure.

Argh. Why must the hipbone injury come on-and-off, why can't it just disappear from my life?
Why must exams be now? Why must exams be on Monday? Why can't I be smarter?
Too many "Whys". Perhaps, I should try finding solutions instead of asking Why. Cause asking "Why" just doesn't help.

Maybe I should learn to take care of myself more.
Maybe I should take this period of time to really rest and recover, fully I hope.
Maybe I should just stop complaining and start studying.
Yes; maybe. No; It's a must.

Can you just stop your-nonsense-thinking for one day?

Anyway, these few days have been rather peaceful. I'm more like in a holiday mood than in the exam mood. Waking up late cause there's no school is such a wonderful feeling. But, exams are just near the corner. And I've studied only so little. Oh what the hell am I doing? Wake up lah, wanwen. STUDY please. & the 9pm , 10pm shows are such a distraction. :(

GRRRRR. Only if there are no exams. haha.
I need to have some sense of urgency. bah.

Yay.
My pet has more money now! WOOHOO.
Hahaha, but the credit goes to Jiayu. She helped me play Pet Society at around 4am plus and earned COINS for my pet. HAHAHA.
I'm going to buy her pet something later on!
Yahooo!:D

And I'm still stuck. BAH! ><

Nightmare.
Worries.
Loss of memory.
Cry

OKAY!
I'm going to have a ' Don't bother' mindset anymore.
Probably things will be easier and I will be happier (:

School was pretty alright today. As usual, quite sleepy. One funny thing, Bixue wore pink, Jasmine wore orange and I wore green today. Does the combination of us look sth familiar, like you've seen it somewhere before? TADA, yeah it's the Traffic light. haha.
Okay nothing much to blog ald. Came home and slept till 9pm today and watched Tuan Yuan Fan. Super nice. I like the Ah gong who kept repeating " I'm a policeman!" He's funny . hahahhaha. & the ending is so touching. :D

Okay, and that mosquito which just gave me a bite, fly away please. *itchy* BAH :(

No trust, no point.

Mark my words.

Wings progressive meet ytd was alrights. Good job to those who have participated, NYP athletics:) Managed to do a own PB. Anyway, thanks to those who encouraged me before or during the race:D Very much appreciated! Oh ya, thanks to Woonching and her Dad too for giving us a ride to VJC cause we lost our way somehow.(:
Oh ya, went to 4E2 Class gathering cum Reunion Dinner on Friday. nice(: Learnt Mahjong. hmmm, Chim. Quite many rules to follow, I suppose? But it's kind of addicting. HAHA!

Going out later to visit some of my Relative houses later on, means more Bakwak to eat! YAY.
But, there's still school tml. Boohoo!

4E2, :D:D:D:D

Race on saturday at VJC. 600 m, an event which I'm afraid most. I don't think i can last that long for striding, not to mention sprinting the last 200m. Oh man. When Coach told me about the race, I was hoping that my event will be sth like 1500m or 3000m. But, no. 600m. plus I have been missing training for like 3 weeks and only get back recently due to both my foot and hipbone injury. Now, my foot's better but my timing shucks. Went to try out 600m with Jasmine today and my timing was about 2 min 26 seconds. Super slow please. Deproved so much and I totally have no idea how to catch up within 1 to 2 days. I'm scared that I will disappoint the whole of NYP track and Coach and yeah, myself.
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh howwwwwwwwwwwwww?

Anyway, going to the gathering tml & I don't dare to eat that much. If not, I don't think i can run on Saturday. But But But, I can't resist the temptation of Food! Bahhhhh! ><

Chinese New Year is Fun. Happy happy :D Steamboats were delicious and visits were fun! Bwahaahaha. Tried Wii for the first time & I shucks at playing. My younger cousins and nieces were even better than me loh. haha, and they laughed at me. The guys went on with PSP soccer, I think. hmmm, I didn't join them cause I would rather play the real soccer. haha. So yeah, ate with the girls, chatted, joked and watched Bedtime stories. Rather nice show(:

Tasted wine.Eek, not nice! My aunt asked me to try, telling me it's green tea, which I believed. & I actually gulped down as I was too thirsty, only realising too late that it's actually wine after tasting the bitterness. Then they said it's okay to drink even 3 cups because it consists of only 5% alcohol content.

Tired, but enjoyed myself. :D

Mum and me.

(ignore my sleepyface)

Cheyanne

Nicole

Cheyanne and I :)

Both of them with me. Oh ya, they are twins. Look alike? haa:)

Both of them with my sis and I :)

Alrights, that's all. Take care peeps. :D Ignore my ugly faces, haha!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! :D

Okay, I've promised to be strong and I will be. I will try hard not to think anymore and start again. :D It's hard, but I can do it. My memory's falling apart and I think I seriously got stm. Maybe it's due to me worrying too much always. So well, I should just stop worrying and be a happy girl!

Food exhibiton was a success, at least to me(: Well, like finally, this MAJOR project had ended. hmmm, left with the report and we will be done for this project. (: SAY BYE BYE to Mee Jiang Kueh. hahahaha. YAYNESS.

ohh yeah, went back to track training after missing for about 3 weeks on Friday :x It certainly felt good to be able to run on the track again! :) all worries gone.

Photos for the Food Exhibition.

Sorry, I'm lazy to rotate. HAA. & that's my group with Alex. LOL

posed a stupid face with bixue's hand pulling up my hair.

& what Murphy said as a Coconut head.

credits to Murphy. Other photos to be uploaded soon(:

and and and, Chinese New Year is coming! so peeps, Gong Xi Fa Cai, Ji Xiang Ru Yi! :D
and also , happy HOLIDAYS:D

Sometimes, I wonder if i can just be that little kid. Can I just not bother about what's going on? I know very well I can't. So the more I should try to overcome all these problems.

I'm not as strong as you think I could have been. But, at least, I will try to be.

Friday, Napfa tester's duty the second time. This time round, tested a whole batch almost on my own during the second shift. NERVOUS. plus they were all guys and I wasn't too sure abt the guys pull-up. Leaded the warm-up and proceeded to the various stations, told them what to do and tested them. & Ronnie came to see how was I doing at the pull-up station out of all. I was like more nervous than those who were being tested loh, partially because I'm afraid that I will say the wrong things as the guys pull-ups are a lil' different and I can't demonstrate. So, I just said what I have heard from others and hopefully, nothing went wrong. Didn't go for training after that as coach saw my MC and asked me to recover first.
Saturday, office work. New things to do, put letters into envelopes and shred papers with the machine FUN. Free lunch and drinks with vouchers. haha. Came home and slept till now. Still tired, headache. will upload the photos some after time, too tired. take care peeps.(:

maybe maybe I shouldn't think that much.
hang on there, girl.

Outerspace.

I think I am tired. I don't know. I seem to forget things easily now, and I can't remember what I have done or even maybe what I have eaten. Too many things stored in my poor brain. Let the wind blow all all all my troubles and worries away please. My head's spinning, everything is spinning. I dislike one part of me, that is thinking too much and worrying unnecessarily. I'm going to change, and I mean it. And I am not going to bother anymore. My feelings were hurt. I can't force myself to put on a smile if I'm hurt. I've tried by laughing out and letting things go.But it's not really easy. so yeah, from now onwards, I'm not going to bother too much. Okay buhbye peeps, I'm flying to outerspace to sort out my thoughts now!

When telling myself doesn't work anymore.
When mind is not clear anymore.


Tired.
Change, not hard, but how easy can it be?
Change, not easy, but how hard can it be?

Buck up, and move on. There is no finishing line, just keep going.

Went Bedok Reservoir for a run with my family (:

Refreshing air, slight breeze, beautiful waters, nice sunlight makes all a good run!

Family photo after the run! :D

JUMPSSS :D

OMGOSH, my brother is so darn fuunnnehh! bwahahahha

thanks bro, make me laugh the whole day!

Papa and Mama(:

shadows!(:

that's all(: buhbye peeps!LOVES. heh

Happy New Year everyone!

Though it's a lil' late now, I still want to wish everyone to be healthy and happy always (:

Oh yeahh & yesterday, went to Causeway Point Seoul Garden with my beloved class FS0803 as well as FS0802. Mentors and some of the students attached came too(: It's some sort of a gathering as well as to celebrate the coming of the New Year! (:

As soon as we reached, we went to choose the foods like quite immediately cause we want to have quite a few servings. Hahahahahaha. Yeah, Singaporean spirit~ kiasuism. Thereafter, we started cooking & eating & talking & laughing & sweating etc etc. DUPER FUN~

Then, we proceeded to the arcade after the Seoul session & have ultra madness. We were screaming and playing and all of us are like little kids running about. :D After that, we went shopping about & returned home for gathering and of course, the FIREWORKS:D

Yitiing and Jasmine. Me and Bixue. ( with Gifts from Murphy)TY!
( with Gifts from Murphy)

ICE-CREAM! Jas, Bixue and I took 2 servings. hahahhahah. and ICe-cream cake. Creativity of the food science students. :D

FOOD WE COOKED! OISHI With our mentor Marlene! (:

Jasmine and I trying out the arcade Roller Coaster whereby both of us freaked out at the surprise part. LOL. Thanks ah no evil gang, for keeping quiet and not telling we both abt the surprise. hahahahah.

Alrights, that's about all. (: Take cares people.!