I suck.

Just felt like blogging for no reason.
Maybe this is the only place I can say all I want..

I'm seriously tired of myself saying that I am tired. I want to make a change but I don't know why I can't. I want to be confident like in the past. I want to be able to run like in the past. I want to have a LIFE like in the past. But I'm just not doing anything about it.

All I do is procastinate. Saying that work tire me out is just an excuse. Working at Nichii and giving tuition aren't as tiring as working at Swensens. But why do I feel much more tired? Perhaps I should really slap myself to wake up..

I really hope to getaway from this busy city, to a faraway place, where there is no judgement, no criticism, where only sounds of the nature can be heard..

What is wrong with me ? :(

Well, I've cooled down these few days. Thinking back, I was at the fault sometimes too. I shouldnt have lost my temper. I should have controlled myself. Whatever it is, everything is over now. And I promise to control myself, and be a daughter ideal enough in their hearts, I hope..

MONEY MONEY AND MONEY
DO YOU HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO TALK ABOUT

YES I AM USELESS . OKAY
YOU HAPPY??!?!?!!!
I CANNOT EARN ENOUGH FOR YOU.
I AM JUST A USELESS DAUGHTER.

FINEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!

Why am I such a nervous wreck? Think I screwed up again :(

I should seriously reflect on myself and learn to be contented.

I'm seriously going crazy at this rate.

Worry worry and worry

Had been so long since I've last posted.
Today marked the end of exams for almost everyone. I know this is something to be joyous but I can't help feeling scared. This had been the worst exams struggles I've ever had I suppose.

Don't know what went wrong with me. Is been so long since I have all these negative feelings. I am so scared of failing the papers. I had no confidence at all. Im scared I can't graduate peacefully. I've been feeling so scared that I can't really concentrate on the papers. Think I've screwed up most papers or rather all.
Sighhhh. I should not think so much anymore. Is causing me chest pains. So unbearable.


Sorry.