I'm very upset.
Promise I made to my mum to train lesser since IVP due to my hipbone injury which kept coming on-and-off and also studies was kept broken by me. But recently, I did take a break from training.
Received msg today that there is a All-comers this Sunday. Was told that 800m was my event. Told mum about it, but her voice..
Answer known.
But I still try persuading her saying that this is really the last race and I will take a break after that till my hipbone recover fully, I hope. And her reply was :" Since when it's not your last race? Quit Track."
I was shocked. She had been nagging about it, but I just replied a "urrmm", a "orrhh" or a "okay". Then, she didn't bother too much about it. But today, she was stern. I don't know if she mean it but I hope not.
Anyway, I had msged coach and he said not to worry and that I can skip this race.
But I still feel disapppointed and bad at the same time. I want to run, it's like a new experience again. Though I can't get into the National Juniors , but least it's still an exposure.

Argh. Why must the hipbone injury come on-and-off, why can't it just disappear from my life?
Why must exams be now? Why must exams be on Monday? Why can't I be smarter?
Too many "Whys". Perhaps, I should try finding solutions instead of asking Why. Cause asking "Why" just doesn't help.

Maybe I should learn to take care of myself more.
Maybe I should take this period of time to really rest and recover, fully I hope.
Maybe I should just stop complaining and start studying.
Yes; maybe. No; It's a must.