Yes you are right

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Holidays are coming to an end & I can't seem to focus and do my work. It's been like this since the start of this semster. Common test, somehow it's gonna be a gone case I suppose.

Have been training but my old stupid injury just keep pulling me back. I want to push myself too. It's all in the mind, I tell myself, but does it help? No! It's beyond my body limits. I can't take it anymore! :( or maybe is just ME.

Have been eating and eating and eating to vent all my frustrations which it doesnt seem to help! :(
They say eating helps, comfort foods help. Not true at all. Now Im a fatty bom bom but Im still unhappy!

Im useless. Thanks for bringing sense into me. you know what, upon hearing that, I stoned.
because yes, you are probably right...as I can't even tell what is wrong with me.

Why do I keep sleeping and sleeping and sleeping?!
ARGH WASTED MY TIME AWAY! :(

Is like seriously, I hate myself.
What is wrong with me? I just can't seem to do any work well from the beginning of this new sem till now.
Is like I can't seem to push myself anymore to run.
Is like I can't seem to push myself anymore to do my work.

ya, what else?

What's wrong with me?
I get so easily tired nowadays, no matter how much I've rested. It's like never enough. :(

I am a fatty bom bom.

Okay, so I was pretty tired about having to tie my hair everyday. & Zoom, I went to cut it! so now I look like one gundo kia from kampong, so ugly :( My mom say I look like some kampong village girl :( & my brother the worse say I look like boy again. Oh well, Im used to all these negative comments. So if you wanna laugh at me, go ahead! I'm used to it :)

TOP POLY :)
Great Job all, NYP ATHELTES! :D


IVP was great with everyone having the same goal, cheering on NYP! Keep the flame going till POLITES and till the next IVP and till the next POLITES and till all the upcoming races! :D

It's all a lie. I want to cry, so badly. But NO I CAN'T, I PROMISE TO BE STRONG.

I've only got myself to blame. :(

Im super disappointed with myself :(

Just what is wrong with me? I seriously think that Im going into depression. No one knows how I feel, how I exactly feel. I am going crazy. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

ARGH I HATE MYSELF. SLAP ME. BOX ME. KILL ME. HUMPTUMP ME! I HATE ALL ABOUT ME.

I should't even have bothered explaining so much. I feel so small, like a coward. :(
From now onwards, I will not be like this anymore.
If that is what you think of me, so be it. I am sick and tired of explaining when nothing is going to work out. Why should I even try so hard to please everyone?


Now, I'll just be me. Like it or not, I am not going to care anymore.

Don't always push the blame to others, reflect on yourself please. Had you heed other people advice, none of this would have happened. Be glad with what you have already, it's more than enough.

Got stung by a hornet :( Not once, but twice!

Just my luck.

Have been getting heart or chest pains recently. Sigh. I don't know where the problem lies, how do I even get these pains I wonder. Was it because of the tolerance that I've had for so long or was it because I've worried too much? I don't know, but either way I know, I don't and won't feel happy. But Life is full of ups and downs, a common but meaningful phrase; which I do fully agree. So I guess I'll just have to learn to let go certain things, buck up and move on with life.

Anyway, got back to train with Grace after so long. Feeling was a mix of happiness and dissapointment, weird feeling. and I've found something after today's training.

Yes, I've found it - Goal.

HELLO BLOG!

IT'S HOLIDAY TIME! :D Both IAP and FYP had ended, and well, though Im still quite worried for the results, but since it's already over, I shall just not think and enjoy my holidays! :) Become a mini housewife these few days because my mum was injured. She got 3 of her rib bones fractured due to a fell on the bus which came to a sudden halt. :( Heard from some passengers that they saw a black Honda Car cut three lanes and the bus-driver had to stop to avoid an accident. Well, luckily mum was fine except for the fractured bones and no one else was injured. To those drivers out there, please DO NOT drive if you do not know how to and well, if you have had a couple of drinks, DON'T EVEN DRIVE. Take a taxi or whatsoever, don't risk with innocent people lives and Im sure you don't want to gamble with yours too.

Yea as for me, just some abrasions and slight knock onto my hipbone. Other than that, Im quite alright :) Anyway, thanks to everyone who had shown concern for my mum and me. My mum's resting and recovering now, so no worries. :)

Alright, shall get some sleep soon. Tired after doing the household chores, boo im so lousy. :X
Till then, nights! :)

Why do some people like to fabricate stories so much, and why do some other people just believe the one-sided stories without having known the full truth? & WHY do these people like to gossip and badmouth others?

Does bitching about people make your lives so much happier? If so, I would strongly recommend you to consult a psychiatrist. Get a life man. Before you bitch about others, reflect on yourself first. Just a note of caution, if your actions still don't change, all your friends would leave you one by one without you knowing. We are still here by your side because we believe you can change. But if you don't, then too bad. Some of us have already told you the truth but you just think that you are always right. Yes Yes Yes, you might as well think that the WHOLE WORLD REVOLVES AROUND YOU, the PLANET EARTH ONLY SPIN FOR YOU? Please, stop criticising others and know who's at the fault. Thanks.

*Clears away dust*
Yeah, it's been really long since I've last updated.. This period of time I've gone through a lot. I realise that many things are not what they appear or seem to be. On the surface, everything might just be normal, but that's actually not the case. Yea, ppl might say you are the one who is thinking too much, but what if you are not the only one who felt or thought so? It's really upsetting to see people whom you are so close with leaving you to other places, but if they are unhappy to stay on, let them move on with their life. Respect their decisions. Afterall if they are happy, you will be happy :)

Recently, I've been through ups and downs. I guess it's just inevitable. I just felt so stupid to actually even believe this person. What the heck am I thinking, I should have known this particular person cannot be trusted. Im sorry, but you broke my trust ONCE, and I will never TRUST you again. Im not angry with you or whatsoever, Im just tired. Ohh well, I'll just treat you as a passer-by in my life. But, thanks for the happy memories that we've once shared, be it truth or lies. I'll move on with my life, and I know you will too. :)

Lastly, just some random quote: Tough times don't last, but Tough guys do :)

I'll shall try to be the toughest guy. hahahahaha.