I'm not a fool.
Perhaps you don't know, but I've ald seen through you.
& seriously, I'm tired ald. Let me tell you, my patience got a limit. You can try testing me if you want. But you will not like it if I change all of a sudden.

I'm trying trying trying very hard to surpress everything & it's not easy.
If one day, I say IF, I am no longer I, then leave me alone.

Christmas was great!
Party at Carel's house till ard 3.30pm and we had fun eating and all. Carel and her mom demonstrated some experiments to us & cool they were. After that, we had gift exchange. BWAHAHAHA. JASMINE RECEIVED MY PREEZIE! & she love it okay! Anyway, thanks Carel for organising the party(:
The Christmas gifts and wishes were all nice and Lovedddd by me. Thanks people! (:(:(:

And after the party, Jasmine and I went to Bugis cause we wanted so much to have STEAMBOAT. It was a last-min idea so we ain't very sure if we had enough money. We walked to several shops and we were starving ald, but all the prices were too expensive for us. The cheapest price was like $15 + which was like a few bucks away from the sum we brought. So disappointed as we were, we went back to Bugis to eat. & finally, we settled at Pastamania. After which, we went to the arcade and play.We played the throwing ball game. It was a game that you have to keep throwing some small little balls onto the screen to hit the bad guys but not the innocent guys or the rats in the kitchen. & everything was hila-humo-rous Proceeded to Muji and played with some of the things there. & took some funny photos.
shall upload all the photos tgt with the ones at Carel's party soon!
Friday's training was tiring but fun! 10 km warm-up run was enough to tire me out. Guess was due to me not running as much but eating a whole lot of good foods during Christmas. HAAHAA. After the 10km, we were supposed to do 400m x 5 but the coach cancelled it. He said he was going to plan a new program ald and asked us to proceed to abs exercise instead. Ohhhh, hope the next training programm will not be too tough.
Oh well, anyway, after the whole training, was playing Frisbee for leisure with Woon Ching, Grace and Eugene. Must thank the Frisbee team for lending us their Frisbee. haha. UBER FUN. :DD
& I love yoko x2! haha

Buhbye~

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! :D
PARTY TIME! WHEE(:

East Coast Park :D

Hello people.

My muscles are aching.Friday's training, as always, is a killer. Yoko Yoko had become my second best friend besides H2O when it comes to training. On Friday, I applied yoko yoko onto my hipbone for like dunno how many times till I can't feel anything besides extreme heat when running. Somehow it do help me to run better w/o any pain holding me back as much as last time do. But yeahh, I know I should not depend too much on it. So, I also did the stretching for my hippy every when I wake up or before I sleep.

Saturday.

I went cycling with Jasmine and Yiting since my mum told me that leisure cycling may also help to rotate my hipbone joints in a way rather than running. I dunno if it's true but I felt like cycling too to distress and have fun. So, I just went & try. Phew, luckily I didn't feel much pain when cycling though there's the "clarrk clarrk". Hopefully, it's the joint rotating to the right position. (:

After that, we went to the beach to enjoy the breeze as well as to get back Jasmine's lost childhood- to build sandcastles. Haa, it was super funny when a Caucasian kid went right in front of Jasmine and stepped on her " Sandcastles towers" and walked away. & Jasmine was like shocked & speechless after that. BWAHAHAHA, her face is darn funny la! LOL.

Yeahh, & must thank Jasmine for her Delicious homemade sandwiches! (: THANKS.

Then, we went back to Dhobby Ghaut to take some pics and to eat dinner.Yiting was showing us some photos of her trip to Hong Kong and America I think. WAA so beautiful loh. *envious envious* haha.

alrights, that's about all. Before I go do some stretching and sleep, here are some of the photos that we took today! :D

Sandwich monster! Finishing up the two boxes of sandwiches? BWAHAHA.

Jasmine, posing with a sandwich too! LOL

Yiting! CANDID(:

The three of us with Sandwiches that Jasmine made. LOL.

Yiting idea's of posing with coconut tree. haha!

TADA! our names, our hand-foot prints and our faces! :) :) :)

NAPFA signing of appointment today. Was briefed about what to do as a napfa tester. seem interesting. training afterwards. and arghhhh, I couldn't even complete the workout. stupid hipbone, one more time you ache, I'm goiing to beat you up! sighh. mum wants me to quit track, and many ask me to rest. I know it's just that they care for me, but quitting and regretting afterwards, is that what I really want? I don't think so. Perhaps, I shall continue to train but not overstrain myself.maybe at a comfortable pace? I don't know. hmmm, guess have to listen to my body at times.jiayou girl. don't give up running. It's your passion.

Anyway, thanks track mates for being there with me when I needed help most. Really appreciate your help. Thanks for going thru' everything with me, the tough times definitely.

Come to think of it, I miss Bowen Badminton again. and here are some pics whereby some of us seniors went back for the camp organised by the juniors.

xiaomin, me and yenling! :D

AWESOME friends. meet up more k? (:

I miss the times when we train seriously, sweat and perservere together and laugh when it's time to like nobody's business. bowen badminton

chipped nails, muddy legs, soggy shoes, sunny days, sweats, laughters.
kind of miss these fun. :D

Ohh yeahh, recently I read about something and came across this phrase " Why worry? Instead of procastinating your work and worrying, why not procastinate worry?"


Makes some sense. & I am learning not to worry unduly too. Hopefully, I can pull myself out of this pit as I am very tired ald. Seriously, I have to stop worrying about unnecessary thoughts which are not even true in the first place.

Okaay, I'll go for my bed now. I'll update about today's trip with bixue as well as do the quizzes tml! :D
Take care people (:

Lying on the big green field & looking up at the big blue sky.

Tagged by Jasmine(:

TEN ARE YOUS

1. Are you single - Yeaps.
2. Are you happy - Hmmm. fairly ba.
3. Are you bored - haha, No. I'm like doing this quiz.
4. Are you fair - If now, then nope. I'm just back from a camp and I am tanned.
5. Are you Italian - Nope.
6. Are you intelligent - HAHAHA. I wish I were a lil' bit smarter. But I'm satisfied ald.
7. Are you honest - Hmmm, it'll have to depend.
8. Are you nice - hahhaha. Yeahh I suppose? lol
9. Are you Irish - Nope
10. Are you Asian - Yeaps.



TEN FACTS

1. Full Name - Oh Wan Wen
2. Nicknames - OH! , OWW, 011, mo wan wan, ah wen.
3. Birth place - Singapore.
4. Hair color - Black
5. Natural hair style - straight and a lil' curly at the ends.
6. Eye Color - Black
7. Birthday - 05 July
8. Mood - Depends.
9. Favorite color - Blue, Orange, Green.
10. One place you'd like to visit- Alice's Wonderland.



TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

1. Have you ever been in love - Nope. believe it or not(:
2. Do you believe in love at first sight - Yeaps.
3. Do you currently have a crush? - Nope
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally- Hmmm, Friendship ba.
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart - yes.
6. Have you ever had your heart broken - ehhh yeaps.
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them - Yeaps.
8. Are you afraid of commitment- Hmmm, can say so.
9. Who was the last person you hugged - emmm Doraemon? I treated it like my baby & hugged everyday.haha. hmmm okay lah, my mum(: but it was a long time ago.
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? My mother.(:

TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust - Love.
2. Hard liquor or beer- None.
3. Cats or dogs - Dogs.
4. A few best friends or any regular friends - Both(:
5. Creamy or Crunchy - Crunchy
6. Pencil or Pen - Pencil, I love to draw(:
7. Wild night out or romantic night in - Depends.
8. Money or Happiness - Happiness(:
9. Night or day - Day.
10. IM or phone - Phone. I have no idea what is a IM.

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out - emm nope? My mum kind of give me freedom as to going out. (:
2. Seen a polar bear - Nope, but I'm hoping to see one!:D
3. Done something you regret - Yeahh, and I regretted till now.
4. Bungee jumped - Nope. But i WANT TO TRY! :D anyone? haha
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor - Yeap.
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker - Nope
7. Been caught naked - Nope!
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back - Haha, I don't have any.
9. Cried because you lost a pet - Yeaps.
10. Wanted to disappear - Yeaps, though I know it's stupid of me to think so.

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes - Both.
2. Light or dark hair - Dark hair.
3. Hugs or kisses - Hugs.
4. Shorter or taller - Taller.
5. Intelligence or attraction - Attraction.
6. Topman or Zara - Doesn't matter.
7. Funny or serious - Both.
8. Older or Younger - Older but not too old. haha. like 5 years older at most?
9. Outgoing or quiet - hmm, a lil' of both.(:
10. Sweet or Bad - I don't know.

TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - Yeaps.
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour - haha, YEAH.
3. Ever tried walking on your hands - hmmm, if with someone carrying your legs considered, then yes.
4. Ever been to a rock concert - Nope.
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team - Nope.
6. Ever been on a dance team - Yeahh.
7.Ever been on a sports team- Yeah, badminton in the past and track as for now.
8. Ever been in a drama play/production - Nope.
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? - Nope, I'm not that rich! Besides, public transport save the earth. haha
10. Ever been in a rap video?- Nope!

TEN... LASTS
1. Last phone call you made - Meiyi.
2. Last person you hugged - My mother.
3. Last person you hung out with - The track team.
4. Last time you worked - 1 year ago.
5. Last person you talked to - My sister.
6. Last person you IM'd - sorry, no idea what is a IM.
7. Last person you texted - Bixue.
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with - Bixue, Jasmine and Yiting.
9. Last person/thing you missed - Bowen Badminton.
10. Last website visited - www.facebook.com

TEN... PEOPLE TO DO THIS
anyone who is free!(:

Track camp was marvellous! :D
Awesome indeed.

First day was training followed by night activities. We watched a short video about NYP ATHLETICS. Whee, touching!(: and also, we celebrated Mr Guru's Birthday! :D
Hmmm, then we had some kind of "self-introduction" talk about ourselves. After that, we had a kind of night-walk till like 2am i suppose? It's like we were given clues to reach a destination. It requires a lot of teamwork and communication, and gladly everyone participated and we managed to reach that place which was the TRACK! :D

Second day was tiring but DUPER FUN.
We were split up into groups, and my group consists of Eugene, Sabril, Grace and myself(: There were altogether 3 stations which were the sprints, jumps and throws before the major relay station. Oh man, I will definitely miss walking with my hands on the field, the throwing of water bombs at each other, the jumping about, the gliding under hurdles, the Trust-Fall and the laughters and fun(:

And the best part was the POOL SESSION. We get to play Captain's Ball in the swimming pool for like about 3 hours? Woooww! Woonching and I were like split into the same group for continously 3 times and we had GREAT TEAMWORK. :D The rest of both teams were great too! Everyone participated to the fullest and we had a ultra-hilarous session man! & yeah, after that, we were all tanned. haha.

Oh well, overall, I really want to thank the seniors for planning such a wonderful team-bonding camp!:D Really enjoyed myself and I'm sure the others did too! ^^

alrights, take care people! Buhbye :D

Shitness for me. I hate being sick sick and sick. didn't study much :(
arghhhhhhhhh. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. UHHH- CHUUUUUUU!!!
My nose is having it's warm-up and is going for a marathon soon.





I must stay strong.

I'm dying.
I'm super tired. The emotions are going to eat me up one day.
Why can't I just be normal?
What had exactly happened to me?
I'm falling apart, I'm dying.


I'm really sorry if I did something wrong. cause I don't meant to. Please, give me somemore time. I will change.




Bring me to wonderland & stay with the rabbits and bears.

AHH WAKE UP LA WAN WEN.

sigh. I have wasted 3 of my beautiful days doing nth but sleeping. how nice.

WAHH. somebody knock some sense into me, please.
I'm supposed to do my homework and yet i am slacking away.

This week was TIRING.
trainings were 5 km and 10 km as warm-ups and that's enough to kill me. Lucky, it's only at a long run pace. After that, we still have like 200 m x 10 or 400 m x 10 or 400 m x 5 at a striding pace?phew. i'm dead beat after that.
Presentation screwed up big time. I was like nervous, nervous and nervous.? with a sleep for like 1 hour, I couldn't even manage to present properly.

some people just don't get it. If you need help from someone, please kindly treat them better. It's not like they owe you or neither are they your maids.
and I suppose it's our freedom to do our own things.? Look, if you want respect from people, Respect them too.
thanks.

I'm in a big mess now. I have so much work to do, so many thinkings to sort out and so many things to handle. Yet, I'm doing none.

woo. My weekends are just gone like that with me crying over nth. stupid me.

Bah! one more thing, I don't know how to use Facebook. :X So people, sorry if i didn't accept any invitations or requests. I'm still learning, haha yeah I know I am a IT retard. SORRY.

I'm sorry.
I'm still trying not to think.

a lil' bit more time will do.


anyway, nowadays I don't know what's wrong with me. I felt like a procastinator. When it comes to work, my eyes will auto shut and I will just sleep.( even lying on the table)
and now, I'm left with tonnes of work to complete and here am I, slacking away. I should just knock my head on the wall and die. or rather , I should just slap myself to wake up.
AHHHH. I AM A LAZY ASSHOLE.

no pics for now. cause i'm too lazy to upload. sorry!

NAPFA's course over. hmmm was quite okay, I managed to stay awake for the whole lecture and the practical session was double fun! :D

& I actually forgotten to bring my jacket for the course, which caused me to be even sicker due to the cold temperature.

BOO! I hate being sick. It makes me feel so tired and flu's one terrible thing. I can't breathe properly & sneezing away makes things worse. sigh. So far, I had not really completed any homework except for the organic chem tutorial with some questions undone.?

and tml there's a physics quiz. shitness. Physics's totally a killer for me.

well, i better get started now.

takecarepeeps.

Okay I'm totally pissed with myself and everything. Why can't I just stop thinking? I'm sorry, please give me a lil' more time to change myself.



and I am going to burst. I am not saying anything doesn't mean that I agree with whatever you say, it's just that you are important to me, and I don't want to hurt you. And that doesnt' give you the right to interfere in my life.

do you know that whatever you say is just so ironic.? fine, i tell you, i'll just zip my mouth and shuddup. I am not going to do anything anymore. It's just not going to help. I just don't see the point of me voicing out. I will rather remain silent.

sorry, it's just the time for me to explode.
press the stop button, and it will do.

I finally fall sick, not that it's something to be happy about.
yes my mum is right, who wldn't get sick under these conditions.?
almost everyone around me is sick, my dad, brother, sister and some friends, and i have yet to fall sick. anyway, to those who are sick, please take care of yourself and drink more water. rest well(:
until ytd, after training in the heavy rain, i fell sick now. warm-up, hurdles and 30 m sprints under the rain were okay, proceeded to indoor for long run as the rain's too heavy. I felt weak during the long run though i had tried to sleep as much as possible.
now I'm feeling cold and hot and I dunno. I'm not making sense again yeah i know.
Captain's ball with FS0802 was fun. Everyone was so high esp the girls i suppose. Woonching's so funny, she kept falling down & she said she learnt how to fall without injuring herself much. Anyway, she's our major scorer. Good job yeah!(:
others were great too! keep it up everyone. hopefully, we can enjoy then next few matches with other classes.(:

alrights, i'm really tired now. goodbye people.

I really have to stop thinking.

Anyway, past two weeks revolved around trainings and trainings, studies and studies. The 4.8km each time round and the slope parts can just kill me. Well, shall train harder with the rest of the team towards our ultimate goal for the POLITE road run :D jiayou nyp athletics!

These two weeks aint that easy for me. I'm trying hard not to anyhow think, but those scary thoughts just come back. Sometimes, I wish these thoughts just vanish in the air and never come back. I'm like losing myself. I don't know. I'm really sorry and I promise to change myself.

Oh well, back to studies. Project 1 's partly done, and now we are left with only the cookings :D hmm, I guess it's time for me to buck up a lil' and stop sleeping in lectures. and also, I should not to slack too much during the weekends & get most of my work done. & i have to stop thnking stop thinking stop thinking.

don't mind me repeating. haha. I'm not making any sense I know.

merry go round, and round and round.

I seriously need to, have to, must stop thinking.
please oh wan wen. STOP THINKING, will you?

IVP over.

final day of IVP was great!

Ran 800m but sadly, i didn't get into the top 8 positions. Gotten a 10th position instead, 2 positions away to get a point for NYP track and field. ahh. it's okay, i tried my best .(:

Anyway, CONGRATS to NYP ATHLETICS for getting 2nd in poly and 5th in overall for IVP. We shall train harder from now on towards our ultimate goal! TOP POLY here we come! :D

Cheering for each other was awesome yesterday. Team spirit was there and everyone had funnnn! Laughing, photo-taking cum ice-throwing session was ultimate!

After everything, we left Gombak and headed back to school for pool and makan session. Pizza and KFC for dinner and it was great because of the good food and company. :D

some photos ! :D

woon ching and I. she's 1405 and i'm 1406.(:

meiyi, me and woonching

(:

woonching and my number tags! :D

(my mum actually went to buy my number for 4D. LOL)

okayy, shall upload the rest of the photos soon! too tired now. heh:X

now, I'm left with tonnes of things to complete. Lab reports, Tutorials, Projects... oh well, that's enough to deprive me of my sleep!

Got to go rush everything now. Take care people. buhbye:D

IVP's tml.
i'm so gonna to die.
I've got no confidence in myself at all.

Been telling myself not to worry about the positions and just try my best out there. Afterall, that's what I've been training for. But, i'm still nervous, scared, anxious, worried, frightened and everything you can think of. Perhaps, i'm just a coward. I think i will get the last position and i'm afraid, not that it's really a bad thing, but i'm just worried of disappointing everyone else in the team.

I know winning or losing is not important, what matters most is whether or not I have completed the race with all my best. oh well, I should try calming myself down somehow now.

Got to sleep early and get enough rest before the race. bye people, take care!

Minds Carnival was great(:
Everyone seems to be happy and having fun, and somehow you feel happy seeing those real smiles.

Problems keep coming back to me like never-ending. I'm trying my best not to think, but they just kept recurring in my mind. Well, I'll still try not to think though. Anyway, thanks to those who were there for me when I very much needed. (:

I think i did something wrong today, and I'm truly sorry if i had upset any of you guys. Sorry. I can't explain much, cause I know sometimes explaining only make things worse and i don't wish to cause any more trouble.

Chest pain and breathing bit irregular. Tired. Going to sleep soon and not think anymore.

rocking chair, rock me to somewhere else please.

Heyo people,

Woke up at 7am in the morning to prepare to go to the open house training.Met yiting at hougang interchange and headed to NYP. As usual, we crapped on the bus :D Then, both of us received the same msg that we do not have to go for the training. Well, we were unhappy and happy. Ironic eh? haha.

First, we were unhappy because we woke up so early to go to the training ( cause we are left with only these few days before next term starts and we want to sleep as much as possible as it's likely that we will be lack of sleep once school starts. haha)

Second, we were happy because we can resume our kbox session with Jasmine too. So, we reached school at about 9.00am and since we have around 5 hours before the session, we thought we will proceed to somewhere to walk about first, Orchard.

Once we reached Orchard, we walked about and went to Long John Silver to grab a bite first because i was hungry. haha. The conversation was funny with us discussing about how our parents used to lie to us such as "orhh.. you swallow apple seeds next time you will an apple tree grown on your head." and "orhh... you swallow chewing gum your stomach will get stuck together." etc etc. Come to think of it, it was silly of me to believe what my mum said and got worried everytime. Well, we were still kids and course we believe everything our parents say.

After that, we went to have our Kbox session at Hougang Plaza.Wooowhhee. It was funnnnn (:
We sang quite many songs and danced. But i didn't stand up to dance la cause i scared hurting my hipbone. But anyway, my hipbone's better now after doing the workout given by the doctor. (: hopefully, the pain will not come back.

Anyway, photos are taken but i'm too tired to upload. Soon soon(: haha.
Oh yeahh, tml there will be a Minds Carnival and hopefully, it will be a successful one(:

i guess i should not think anymore. i'm sorry.
And RACH, i'm certainly not a lazy bum! you are the one :X *coughs*
ohh lala~

Back from training with Mandy and Gilbert. Jasmine's sick, so she can't join us. oh well, girl, take care and recover soon! looking forward to some running with you(:

Recently, I felt that I've been deproving. I don't know why I just couldn't push myself more during trainings regardless if it's self-training or with the team. & I'm getting tired easily. This evening, after the 2nd round of 400m, I practically got no energy. My whole body felt weak and my hands were like trembling and aching from yesterday's swim. And i heard that swimming helps in some way if you got injuries. I guess it really did though there's still slight pain when it comes to sprinting.

Anyway, I was thinking a lot on my way home. IVP's coming in just about 15 days and I've got no confidence in myself at all. The anxiety is building up in me and I am getting more nervous each day. I felt like I'm not well-prepared enough. sighh. Guess i'll just have to push myself more during trainings and not letting the tiredness and nervousness stopping me. hopefully, i can persevere on.

okay, i'm off to get some sleep! take care people :D

Hey guys! Selamat Hari Raya and Happy Children's Day!
Anyway, yesterday was a public holiday and I took the chance to go swimming with my mum. To be accurate, I was learning how to swim. (yeah I know some of you must be shocked that I still don't know how to swim at this age. okay, don't laugh at me! LOL)

My mum was funny. She wanted to ask the kids in the pool to teach us how to swim, but she didn't know how to open her mouth. So, in the end, we tried to learn by ourselves and my aunt sort of taught us verbally cause she didn't go down the pool. & finally after gulping down the pool water for several times, I managed to swim for few steps. haha. At that moment, i was quite happy though it's really not a big achivement. lol.

Went to eat and home after that as mum was complaining that she's aching all over. haha. me too! chatted on msn and watched some shows and slept after that.

phew. I'm still like freaking tired now. alrights, I have to go prepare myself for some running later on with Jasmine.
take care people! buhbye(:

Hey guys, i'm tired of thinking. that's how my blog's address came about. haha
anyway, here to post some photos of the crazy gathering with FLH group!( Lile's birthday celebration)

everyone turned up! Yenling, Olivia, Bixue, Xinlian, Jiayu, Lile and I! :D
and yeah, we had loads of fun!

FLH's group photo.! (:

birthday girl, Lile ! :D darling nui lang!

heehee, funny and cute pose with the angpao!

alrights, that's about all! i should stop thinking and get some sleep(: take care people!

YO!

blog's created with help from yiting(: thanks girl! :D

take care people! buhbye