Why do some people like to fabricate stories so much, and why do some other people just believe the one-sided stories without having known the full truth? & WHY do these people like to gossip and badmouth others?

Does bitching about people make your lives so much happier? If so, I would strongly recommend you to consult a psychiatrist. Get a life man. Before you bitch about others, reflect on yourself first. Just a note of caution, if your actions still don't change, all your friends would leave you one by one without you knowing. We are still here by your side because we believe you can change. But if you don't, then too bad. Some of us have already told you the truth but you just think that you are always right. Yes Yes Yes, you might as well think that the WHOLE WORLD REVOLVES AROUND YOU, the PLANET EARTH ONLY SPIN FOR YOU? Please, stop criticising others and know who's at the fault. Thanks.

*Clears away dust*
Yeah, it's been really long since I've last updated.. This period of time I've gone through a lot. I realise that many things are not what they appear or seem to be. On the surface, everything might just be normal, but that's actually not the case. Yea, ppl might say you are the one who is thinking too much, but what if you are not the only one who felt or thought so? It's really upsetting to see people whom you are so close with leaving you to other places, but if they are unhappy to stay on, let them move on with their life. Respect their decisions. Afterall if they are happy, you will be happy :)

Recently, I've been through ups and downs. I guess it's just inevitable. I just felt so stupid to actually even believe this person. What the heck am I thinking, I should have known this particular person cannot be trusted. Im sorry, but you broke my trust ONCE, and I will never TRUST you again. Im not angry with you or whatsoever, Im just tired. Ohh well, I'll just treat you as a passer-by in my life. But, thanks for the happy memories that we've once shared, be it truth or lies. I'll move on with my life, and I know you will too. :)

Lastly, just some random quote: Tough times don't last, but Tough guys do :)

I'll shall try to be the toughest guy. hahahahaha.

With all the missings

I miss track. POL-ITES is like going to be up in Jan, and I am not even getting prepared yet. Have not been training. Sighhhh.

I miss Running.
I miss trainings.
I miss Sweating.
I miss enduring.
I miss Laughing.
I miss crying.
I miss THE TEAM.


On a happier note, my knees are recovering I suppose. Plus heard from Ronnie that he got a physiotherapist, perhaps I can get some help from there.

ohhh mannn, stop emoing WW! D: Hang on there! Tml's going to be another long day at Swensens. Christmas eve, sure a busy day it will be. Well, fighting fighting fighting! Woosh!

These few days, I have not been feeling myself. Just what is wrong with me? I'm getting so tired, not as in physically. But more towards mentally. I feel so useless too. Sigh.

Ran from NYP to Khatib ytd with Jasmine. Hmm the reservoir that we ran pass was quite nice. Like relaxing seh. All troubles also gone. I wish I can run everyday like this. No more thinking, no more emoing.

And on a random note: I've got another dream occupation in mind now- Police.

(:

Hold on. Uphill battle.

Booohoo, work is no fun today:( I've got no more strength. Trainings, competitions, work, courses and SCH's REOPENING! How am I going to cope?

BAH! I must hold on, I can't break down!

It's always an uphill battle. Hold there. (:

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

It's pointless to say when there is already no belief, no trust, let alone explaining.

Who are you? Why can you do things that you want and why others can't ?

Am I like INVISIBLE? Ask yourself, did I try my best in the very first place? What makes you think that I didn't? And do you know even know how much hurt you have actually caused ?

There were always times that people fall, but they are trying to pick themselves up. Not only that you didn't encourage or help them up, you actually kicked them or pushed them down to the very bottom of the pit. Do you know how that actually feels like? It's beyond description. It's a horrible feeling, so painful. :( Yet, I can't cry. Irony. I used to cry easily, and now suddenly, all I've felt like I'm losing myself.

My heart is really really very very heavy heavy and tired. I guess I should take a break.