I should't even have bothered explaining so much. I feel so small, like a coward. :(
From now onwards, I will not be like this anymore.
If that is what you think of me, so be it. I am sick and tired of explaining when nothing is going to work out. Why should I even try so hard to please everyone?


Now, I'll just be me. Like it or not, I am not going to care anymore.

Don't always push the blame to others, reflect on yourself please. Had you heed other people advice, none of this would have happened. Be glad with what you have already, it's more than enough.

Got stung by a hornet :( Not once, but twice!

Just my luck.

Have been getting heart or chest pains recently. Sigh. I don't know where the problem lies, how do I even get these pains I wonder. Was it because of the tolerance that I've had for so long or was it because I've worried too much? I don't know, but either way I know, I don't and won't feel happy. But Life is full of ups and downs, a common but meaningful phrase; which I do fully agree. So I guess I'll just have to learn to let go certain things, buck up and move on with life.

Anyway, got back to train with Grace after so long. Feeling was a mix of happiness and dissapointment, weird feeling. and I've found something after today's training.

Yes, I've found it - Goal.