It's pointless to say when there is already no belief, no trust, let alone explaining.

Who are you? Why can you do things that you want and why others can't ?

Am I like INVISIBLE? Ask yourself, did I try my best in the very first place? What makes you think that I didn't? And do you know even know how much hurt you have actually caused ?

There were always times that people fall, but they are trying to pick themselves up. Not only that you didn't encourage or help them up, you actually kicked them or pushed them down to the very bottom of the pit. Do you know how that actually feels like? It's beyond description. It's a horrible feeling, so painful. :( Yet, I can't cry. Irony. I used to cry easily, and now suddenly, all I've felt like I'm losing myself.

My heart is really really very very heavy heavy and tired. I guess I should take a break.

When passion becomes pressure.

Working at Swensens
Something happened and I broke down during the second or third day, couldn't really remember which day. Useless me. :( Beside that, everything were rather alright, just that I was a bit clumsy and too tensed up and that hmmm I dunno how to put make-up! Haha, should try to relax more. All staffs there were rather friendly and funny, & that helps a bit in making me feel better while working:) Nice!

Trainings
Knee still pain. :( No motivation to push myself. Im a loser, Im a coward. I hate myself for being like this. Change, competitions are coming up! Jiayou man! Give me some time. I promise to change & I will do it.

Study
Results are out for TP and NP. Good loh, my friends almost all get back results and did quite well. Unlike me, worrying and worrying. Sighhh. scared seh. hmm, don't think le ba!

Chalet
YES! AT LEAST ONE THING IM VERY VERY VERY HAPPY ABOUT AND LOOKING FORWARD TO! HAHAHAHAHA! WHEE IT'S PARTY TIME! WHEEEEE :DD

Alrights shall sleep soon, got to work tml. After that meeting Jasmine to buy the chalet stuff (YAY!) and perhaps go check-up for my knee. Hoookay, that's about all. Take care people! Enjoy the HOLIDAYS!

Woooooo, Holidays are here! Like finally, after emm 2 torturous weeks of exams, I am FREE!
HAHA. So Thursday, went Kbox with Jasmine, Huiwen and Murphy. HAHAHA, FUN MAN! We not only sang, we SCREAMED, we DANCED, we JUMPED around! LOL, Murphy was like covering his ears when the rest of us screamed for our favourite bands. HAHA

& we too disturbed Murphy when he sang his song. As we do not know how the tune goes, we started to crap the song out. We read out the lyrics LOUD and I guess that distracted him somehow. Haha, but he was still able to continue to sing, salute man! Then Huiwen and Murphy need to go off first and left with Jasmine and me. We two ki-siao again. Lols. We SCREAMED INTO the microphone and like having our own concert. LOL.


Afterwards, we went to walk around AMK hub and ate Subway and went home. Next, was Friday, Met up with Lile and Jiayu to shop around at Novena-Velocity shopping mall? I can't really remember the name, haha. I went to walk around UnitedSquare first. Then, when they reached, we went to have SubWay, haha Im addicted to Subway! The cookies and the sandwich combination is shiok man! Then, we went to walk around and Lile bought some clothes. Haha, she want to look like 18 but kind of hard for her cause she got a 'baby-face'. LOL. Unlike me, no need to purposely buy mature-like clothes to wear ppl ald think that I am 20. haa, wonder if that's even a good thing. lols. Then, Jiayu bought some make-up for her presentation next time and we went to buy hand-bands! I dunno if that's what it's called, but yea, we bought it! It's like telephone cords, haha so cute! At first, Lile and I dunno what it is until Jiayu told us. & she said that this is common. LOL, then Lile and I realised how outdated we are. So, Lile got a black one, Jiayu got a black and grey I think, and I got a Green one! :DD Then, off to my training~
Wahh, reached like early and accompanied woonching to the doctor to get her stamp for her OBS camp. While walking, I was thinking if I should consult the doctor about my knee. & ended up, I went to see the doctor too! Anyway, thanks woonching for helping me to pay first as I didnt bring enough cash. Then, went to train. Booo, my knee sucks still. Ahh, just hope the medication that the doctor give helps man. Then was dinner with track mates. LOL, I had a good laugh man. Then, home-sweet-home!

Saturday, went to Bugis with Jasmine. Saw some job interviews and took down the numbers. Called most of them and was told that would only get a reply on Monday. So have to wait yea. Hmmm, walked around and chatted. Then we reached AMK hub and while resting, we saw this super cute baby!!!!! Really super cute! Soo chubby and the parents are like buying baby clothes for their child. so sweet (:

Then, Sunday! Mum said she want to shop around the new shopping malls. So, I brought her to Iluma. Wah, things there were like expensive seh. We didnt buy much and ended up buying more at Bugis street. HAHA. Then, had KFC for Lunch and Pepper Lunch for Dinner and went home. Ohh yea, saw Roufang from FS0802 and called out to her. She was shopping with her family too I guess(: Yea, and trained-bus home. Tml's got Swensens Interview at 3pm at Bugis. Ohh man, BUGIS AGAIN! Lols. After that, shall head off to my training. Knee Knee recover pls~

Alrights, pictures are in Facebook. Lazy to update. hahahahaha. See you guys till then~