WAHH. somebody knock some sense into me, please.
I'm supposed to do my homework and yet i am slacking away.

This week was TIRING.
trainings were 5 km and 10 km as warm-ups and that's enough to kill me. Lucky, it's only at a long run pace. After that, we still have like 200 m x 10 or 400 m x 10 or 400 m x 5 at a striding pace?phew. i'm dead beat after that.
Presentation screwed up big time. I was like nervous, nervous and nervous.? with a sleep for like 1 hour, I couldn't even manage to present properly.

some people just don't get it. If you need help from someone, please kindly treat them better. It's not like they owe you or neither are they your maids.
and I suppose it's our freedom to do our own things.? Look, if you want respect from people, Respect them too.
thanks.

I'm in a big mess now. I have so much work to do, so many thinkings to sort out and so many things to handle. Yet, I'm doing none.

woo. My weekends are just gone like that with me crying over nth. stupid me.

Bah! one more thing, I don't know how to use Facebook. :X So people, sorry if i didn't accept any invitations or requests. I'm still learning, haha yeah I know I am a IT retard. SORRY.

I'm sorry.
I'm still trying not to think.

a lil' bit more time will do.


anyway, nowadays I don't know what's wrong with me. I felt like a procastinator. When it comes to work, my eyes will auto shut and I will just sleep.( even lying on the table)
and now, I'm left with tonnes of work to complete and here am I, slacking away. I should just knock my head on the wall and die. or rather , I should just slap myself to wake up.
AHHHH. I AM A LAZY ASSHOLE.

no pics for now. cause i'm too lazy to upload. sorry!

NAPFA's course over. hmmm was quite okay, I managed to stay awake for the whole lecture and the practical session was double fun! :D

& I actually forgotten to bring my jacket for the course, which caused me to be even sicker due to the cold temperature.

BOO! I hate being sick. It makes me feel so tired and flu's one terrible thing. I can't breathe properly & sneezing away makes things worse. sigh. So far, I had not really completed any homework except for the organic chem tutorial with some questions undone.?

and tml there's a physics quiz. shitness. Physics's totally a killer for me.

well, i better get started now.

takecarepeeps.

Okay I'm totally pissed with myself and everything. Why can't I just stop thinking? I'm sorry, please give me a lil' more time to change myself.



and I am going to burst. I am not saying anything doesn't mean that I agree with whatever you say, it's just that you are important to me, and I don't want to hurt you. And that doesnt' give you the right to interfere in my life.

do you know that whatever you say is just so ironic.? fine, i tell you, i'll just zip my mouth and shuddup. I am not going to do anything anymore. It's just not going to help. I just don't see the point of me voicing out. I will rather remain silent.

sorry, it's just the time for me to explode.
press the stop button, and it will do.

I finally fall sick, not that it's something to be happy about.
yes my mum is right, who wldn't get sick under these conditions.?
almost everyone around me is sick, my dad, brother, sister and some friends, and i have yet to fall sick. anyway, to those who are sick, please take care of yourself and drink more water. rest well(:
until ytd, after training in the heavy rain, i fell sick now. warm-up, hurdles and 30 m sprints under the rain were okay, proceeded to indoor for long run as the rain's too heavy. I felt weak during the long run though i had tried to sleep as much as possible.
now I'm feeling cold and hot and I dunno. I'm not making sense again yeah i know.
Captain's ball with FS0802 was fun. Everyone was so high esp the girls i suppose. Woonching's so funny, she kept falling down & she said she learnt how to fall without injuring herself much. Anyway, she's our major scorer. Good job yeah!(:
others were great too! keep it up everyone. hopefully, we can enjoy then next few matches with other classes.(:

alrights, i'm really tired now. goodbye people.

I really have to stop thinking.

Anyway, past two weeks revolved around trainings and trainings, studies and studies. The 4.8km each time round and the slope parts can just kill me. Well, shall train harder with the rest of the team towards our ultimate goal for the POLITE road run :D jiayou nyp athletics!

These two weeks aint that easy for me. I'm trying hard not to anyhow think, but those scary thoughts just come back. Sometimes, I wish these thoughts just vanish in the air and never come back. I'm like losing myself. I don't know. I'm really sorry and I promise to change myself.

Oh well, back to studies. Project 1 's partly done, and now we are left with only the cookings :D hmm, I guess it's time for me to buck up a lil' and stop sleeping in lectures. and also, I should not to slack too much during the weekends & get most of my work done. & i have to stop thnking stop thinking stop thinking.

don't mind me repeating. haha. I'm not making any sense I know.

merry go round, and round and round.