Worry worry and worry

Had been so long since I've last posted.
Today marked the end of exams for almost everyone. I know this is something to be joyous but I can't help feeling scared. This had been the worst exams struggles I've ever had I suppose.

Don't know what went wrong with me. Is been so long since I have all these negative feelings. I am so scared of failing the papers. I had no confidence at all. Im scared I can't graduate peacefully. I've been feeling so scared that I can't really concentrate on the papers. Think I've screwed up most papers or rather all.
Sighhhh. I should not think so much anymore. Is causing me chest pains. So unbearable.


Sorry.

Yes you are right

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Holidays are coming to an end & I can't seem to focus and do my work. It's been like this since the start of this semster. Common test, somehow it's gonna be a gone case I suppose.

Have been training but my old stupid injury just keep pulling me back. I want to push myself too. It's all in the mind, I tell myself, but does it help? No! It's beyond my body limits. I can't take it anymore! :( or maybe is just ME.

Have been eating and eating and eating to vent all my frustrations which it doesnt seem to help! :(
They say eating helps, comfort foods help. Not true at all. Now Im a fatty bom bom but Im still unhappy!

Im useless. Thanks for bringing sense into me. you know what, upon hearing that, I stoned.
because yes, you are probably right...as I can't even tell what is wrong with me.

Why do I keep sleeping and sleeping and sleeping?!
ARGH WASTED MY TIME AWAY! :(

Is like seriously, I hate myself.
What is wrong with me? I just can't seem to do any work well from the beginning of this new sem till now.
Is like I can't seem to push myself anymore to run.
Is like I can't seem to push myself anymore to do my work.

ya, what else?

What's wrong with me?
I get so easily tired nowadays, no matter how much I've rested. It's like never enough. :(

I am a fatty bom bom.

Okay, so I was pretty tired about having to tie my hair everyday. & Zoom, I went to cut it! so now I look like one gundo kia from kampong, so ugly :( My mom say I look like some kampong village girl :( & my brother the worse say I look like boy again. Oh well, Im used to all these negative comments. So if you wanna laugh at me, go ahead! I'm used to it :)