I can't stay like this anymore!
I must change!!!!!!!!!
Wan Wen, have the determination! Overcome all your fears!!!

Basically, I am just a useless person.

I suck.

Just felt like blogging for no reason.
Maybe this is the only place I can say all I want..

I'm seriously tired of myself saying that I am tired. I want to make a change but I don't know why I can't. I want to be confident like in the past. I want to be able to run like in the past. I want to have a LIFE like in the past. But I'm just not doing anything about it.

All I do is procastinate. Saying that work tire me out is just an excuse. Working at Nichii and giving tuition aren't as tiring as working at Swensens. But why do I feel much more tired? Perhaps I should really slap myself to wake up..

I really hope to getaway from this busy city, to a faraway place, where there is no judgement, no criticism, where only sounds of the nature can be heard..

What is wrong with me ? :(

Well, I've cooled down these few days. Thinking back, I was at the fault sometimes too. I shouldnt have lost my temper. I should have controlled myself. Whatever it is, everything is over now. And I promise to control myself, and be a daughter ideal enough in their hearts, I hope..

MONEY MONEY AND MONEY
DO YOU HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO TALK ABOUT

YES I AM USELESS . OKAY
YOU HAPPY??!?!?!!!
I CANNOT EARN ENOUGH FOR YOU.
I AM JUST A USELESS DAUGHTER.

FINEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!

Why am I such a nervous wreck? Think I screwed up again :(

I should seriously reflect on myself and learn to be contented.

I'm seriously going crazy at this rate.

Worry worry and worry

Had been so long since I've last posted.
Today marked the end of exams for almost everyone. I know this is something to be joyous but I can't help feeling scared. This had been the worst exams struggles I've ever had I suppose.

Don't know what went wrong with me. Is been so long since I have all these negative feelings. I am so scared of failing the papers. I had no confidence at all. Im scared I can't graduate peacefully. I've been feeling so scared that I can't really concentrate on the papers. Think I've screwed up most papers or rather all.
Sighhhh. I should not think so much anymore. Is causing me chest pains. So unbearable.


Sorry.

Yes you are right

...
Holidays are coming to an end & I can't seem to focus and do my work. It's been like this since the start of this semster. Common test, somehow it's gonna be a gone case I suppose.

Have been training but my old stupid injury just keep pulling me back. I want to push myself too. It's all in the mind, I tell myself, but does it help? No! It's beyond my body limits. I can't take it anymore! :( or maybe is just ME.

Have been eating and eating and eating to vent all my frustrations which it doesnt seem to help! :(
They say eating helps, comfort foods help. Not true at all. Now Im a fatty bom bom but Im still unhappy!

Im useless. Thanks for bringing sense into me. you know what, upon hearing that, I stoned.
because yes, you are probably right...as I can't even tell what is wrong with me.

Why do I keep sleeping and sleeping and sleeping?!
ARGH WASTED MY TIME AWAY! :(

Is like seriously, I hate myself.
What is wrong with me? I just can't seem to do any work well from the beginning of this new sem till now.
Is like I can't seem to push myself anymore to run.
Is like I can't seem to push myself anymore to do my work.

ya, what else?

What's wrong with me?
I get so easily tired nowadays, no matter how much I've rested. It's like never enough. :(

I am a fatty bom bom.

Okay, so I was pretty tired about having to tie my hair everyday. & Zoom, I went to cut it! so now I look like one gundo kia from kampong, so ugly :( My mom say I look like some kampong village girl :( & my brother the worse say I look like boy again. Oh well, Im used to all these negative comments. So if you wanna laugh at me, go ahead! I'm used to it :)

TOP POLY :)
Great Job all, NYP ATHELTES! :D


IVP was great with everyone having the same goal, cheering on NYP! Keep the flame going till POLITES and till the next IVP and till the next POLITES and till all the upcoming races! :D

It's all a lie. I want to cry, so badly. But NO I CAN'T, I PROMISE TO BE STRONG.

I've only got myself to blame. :(

Im super disappointed with myself :(